A week ago I turned 34… not old by any means right!? Well little did I think that at this young age I would find a lump in my breast! It was a series of unfortunate events in Mexico (a crazy story for another day) that led to me getting out of my car to talk to another mom at the school about our insane trip experience. There in the sun she noticed what she said looked like a lump… well I thought its my collar bone as I had just been really sick for a few weeks and couldn’t eat a lot… shrugged it off went home. Later that evening as I was laying in bed on my side it did feel a little funny on my breast so I did a quick check… nothing prepares you for the anxiety and roller coaster of emotions that follow finding this scary lump which wasn’t where she had noticed but thankfully her seeing something prompted this thought to check. I had been doing the monthly exams for the last few years and wondered if I would ever notice “it” had I ever developed anything there well I’m here to tell you if its there and your doing your exam right… you’ll notice it!
So then came the dreaded time to make an appointment at the doctor. Well I went in last week and he confirmed what I was hoping was in my mind or just some extra muscle from wedding season starting.. but nope he felt it and confirmed that yes what I found was a lump… what that lump was he would need to send me for an ultrasound to see. Well here in Grande Prairie it is a good solid 6-7 week wait to get in for this ultrasound which in the thick of wedding season I needed a clear mind not this looming over my head so off to Edmonton I went to get in as quick as I could! As soon as the results were in I had my follow up appointment made however I had to wait 3 days until then. Let me tell you the amount of emotions you go through are something you cannot be prepared for … ever! I tried my best to stay positive but then the looming thoughts of what ifs and what would I do came over me, I was a complete emotional wreck on the inside. I am thankful for all the prayers and that I had so many people to talk through this with me. When I sat in the Doctor’s office this morning those few minutes to wait for him to come in were insanely hard my mind was all over the place, the room was spinning and I felt as though I was about to be sick. He walked in and asked me how I was and then read the results.
Well the result is benign for now. I have to go for follow up appointments every 3 months for now to keep on this and make sure it doesn’t develop into anything else.
So if someone tells you “you’re too young” your not… check yourself and be sure your doing them properly for me I was laying in bed on my side to feel this so be thorough, go for those appointments and hopefully this helps make it seem more real to those who think they are too young to check… to check! The silver lining for me is if anything changes we will catch it quick with those 3 month check ups.
